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The Edge of Artlessness: The
video reflection, snap-shot, family and self-portraiture; and
almost losing it all.
Jim Jeffers |
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Written in Denver (Lakewood),
Colorado, USA, July, 2003 in pencil on an envelope from a phone
bill (The Neighborhood, built by mci).
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I have traveled back to the town of my birth
and the first 15 years of my life: Denver, Colorado. The edge
is somehow still here – life, humans, Americans are still
'edgy' (in a good way, I think). The city (but really more
the feel of a town, coming from my Newark, NJ and its electric-soot
foyer to NYC)...the town is perplexed by a series of cat mutilations,
numbering over 40 in the various Denver suburbs; we all know Littleton,
Colorado (where I put in most of my formative years) because of
the Columbine High School shootings, and of course the brilliant
Bowling for Columbine (Michael Moore's masterpiece of American
Feardom). There are more suburbs melted out on the plains,
almost as far as one can see, but alas, one can see really really
far; there is Lakewood, where I am staying with my aunt, my late
father's sister, and her neighbor who is a pushing 80 emphysemic
myopic sleeping with a gun under her pillow. Yet folks (I
heard an uptight ‘liberal' lady on the radio the other day
say, "I am not folks, I am people!" oops, I thought
"soylent green" was "people")...yet folks
here seem more at ease with danger – they ride motorcycles
without helmets, drive like they don't have anywhere to go and
let their children play in fountains and streams in the middle
of towns. I witnessed government unsupervised inner-tubing,
free admission, open to all in Boulder creek in the middle of
downtown Boulder, Colorado – This warmed my heart after
forking over six dollars to attend the well ordered, well government
supervised beach at Bel Mar in New Jersey. Both are reflections
of space and time.
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top: Even Here (Denver
Airport, CO) |
bottom:Cell Phone Trouble
(Denver, CO) |
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above: Somewhere on the way
to Boulder, CO |
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I neglected to bring my video camera on my trip. Chiefly,
I suppose because it does not actually belong to me so I am apt
to forego that responsibility. I did bring two digital cameras,
a small one and a really small one (the latter I actually own),
but only used them two out of a ten day trip. Why? I know
artists who carry those shining metal boxes everywhere, especially
with the size getting smaller seemingly in proportion to their
improving capabilities; and, I am a 'digital media' artist.
We say, "I am at a loss for words," "I am speechless,"
well then, what happens when one is artless? |
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Written in Newark, NJ, USA, late June, 2003 in ballpoint pen in
a sketch book found at the offices of Vogue Magazine and given to me.
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left: A and A (Aurora, CO) |
middle: K in
Aspen, CO |
right: J and
K: phone call (Nederland, CO) |
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Looking around, paging through art magazines, going
to museum and galleries I am struck by the calm, the business
as usual, the 'blah,' the overwhelming monotony, what's going
on? Post 9-11 (September 11, 2001) the art world, and artists
seem to have lost their legs. No longer able to take
radical opposition or find concurrence with a world of crazy (paranoid
and at war). A great standoff has overtaken the American
scene (at least in my NewYorCentic mind). Artists who by
and large find war and violence abhorrent are without recourse
on all fronts. Does the World Trade Center tragedy only
balance U.S. policy post World War II with regard to most of the
rest of the world (especially those people of color who do not
'share' our beliefs)? Does it not just start to even the
score for playing all sides in "our national [best] interest"
(so Americans can consume more, drive bigger, and play "good"
cop so long as the victim is strategic, i.e. Kuwait)? Or
is the "War on Terror" just? After all, people conspired
and executed flying fully loaded jetliners into the World Trade
Center and the Pentagon, and even some into the ground in Pennsylvania,
killing thousands of people. |
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above: Hot Town (Newark, NJ) |
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Art is, by my estimation, numbed at the face of the two horrors.
It cannot react like the late 1980s and early 1990s with a polarized
politic decrying the need for socioeconomic opportunity for any
who feel disenfranchised. Nor can it take the stance of
the late 1990s, Dave Hickey advocated approach of bringing some
actual beauty into the world – sometimes at the expense
of content (but beauty is content!). Both periods in retrospect
were good; we fought the man with self-righteous didacticism and
then partied like it was 1999 (and shit it was!). Both models,
Reagan/Bush– the first– gave us a model of opposition,
everything we didn't want, and Clinton–the second–was
like the fun uncle who would sneak us beer and girly mags when
our parents weren't looking. But now, we have another Bush,
too dumb and a tad too cute in a marsupial kind of way to really
hate, and the world seems too bleak. I am reminded of the
time I tore the fiberglass top off my Volkswagen Vanagon in a
parking garage, I just stood there in shock screaming, "Fuck,
fuck, fuck....!!!" because I had no one to blame but myself.
And this is the kind of feeling I get from our current era of
gutless art; we have no one to blame but ourselves for: Bush,
for 9-11, for Osama Bin Laden, for Timothy McVeigh and Oklahoma
City, for Waco, for Iraq–we have seem the "man behind
the curtain" and it is US, all of us in the west who drive
and eat and curse war, and complain when the price of gasoline
is too high. Art is on the edge of artlessness, it seems
artists need to– at least on some level– understand
the stuff we make art about, and when distilled down we, as artists,
make ourselves to, about and in our time–and both our time
and understanding currently seem hazy at best. |
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Where is the edge? Well, it sure is not
in the gallery. How can "fine art" compete seriously
with the likes of Jackass, Survivor, and The Gulf War part II
on the reality TV front, or Buffy the Vampire Slayer, X-MEN, The
Hulk, Spider-Man, or Finding Nemo? Matthew Barney dug in
and fell off the spiral of the Guggenheim seeming never ‘real'
enough. If I had an answer I would not be writing here.
I find ghosts in my house and making a substitute popular culture
in my own head my only pathetic art cope. What is yours? |
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(above) |
top: K watching
Buffy (Lakewood, CO) |
bottom:Poltergeist:
Laurie's house (Denver, CO) |
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above: 4th of July Mike (Hightstown,
NJ) |
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Somehow I don't think it is so bad. Of the
few photos I had taken this summer most have been of loved ones,
of family and of friends as close as family. The large blackout
really made me think better of at least the American people.
We did not riot or loot or go crazy, we just walked and ate ice
cream before it melted.
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Newark, New Jersey,
USA, August, 2003, writing using an old version of WordPerfect on new
computer in the old case. |
Photos by Jim Jeffers (2003).
All rights reserved.
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Jim Jeffers is a intermedia
artist working with fantasy and biography ("fantabiography"). |
He likes TV, Legos and Volkswagens
and has exhibited work in Europe and the United States.He lives
in Newark, New Jersey (USA) and works where he can. |
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